“To give a man too much reassurance too soon is the same as over watering a plant. It kills it.” -Sherry Argov

Well that was a bit too close to home.

I got to reunite with my good friends last night, we all knew that we have a lot of catching up to do and we really had a good time just chatting and chatting. I had a very good time, I swear. Not until I’m on my way home, a sudden influx of questions and frustrations came. Can you imagine that with less than 5 minutes of trike ride, a gazillion (well that was exaggerated) of thoughts popped into my mind? That’s the power of the enemy.

Lately I’ve been dealing with these thoughts and the enemy is really taking advantage of my vulnerability. Frustrations. I quote A Fine Frenzy’s Almost Lover, “Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?” I am blaming myself again. For allowing someone to just easily break the walls I’ve tried so hard to build. For allowing these things to happen again. For me being so vulnerable. Questions. Maybe I’m just over reacting? Maybe I was a bit demanding? Maybe I just didn’t get the picture right? Maybe I was wrong after all?

I actually have no words left to tell more about this so let’s just move on to the realizations part. Haha.

Our previous series in church (which has ended two Sundays ago) was Passionate Pursuits. The third part of the series struck me. Close to home (I love that idiom). The preaching focused on Exodus chapters 13 and 14, about the Israelites crossing the sea.

“I will pursue God’s purposeful path.” These were the key points for that day:

  • I will pursue God’s purposeful path not for easy but for glory. Even if the path I’m taking is too long, rest assured that through this path, I will find His glory.
  • I will pursue God’s purposeful path knowing that my past pursues me too. There were times when the problems and sins of the past haunt me again, not to mention what I said earlier. I thought I was over it, and then I get terrified. I tend to question God and think that my life was so much better and easier before I decided to follow Him, before He asked me to take this path.
  • I will pursue God’s path still on the inside yet moving on the outside. I have to keep taking those steps, even if they’re small baby steps, I have to move forward. I can’t just stand here and be still, I have to do the move as well.
  • I will pursue God’s purposeful path trusting Him even when I don’t see Him. There are times when God will allow us to strengthen our faith by ourselves, to be assured of moving forward even if we cannot see Him. I have to believe in my heart that He is working on the things I cannot do, fighting the battles I cannot face. Behind the scenes as they say.

The path towards God is narrow & difficult. We ask, why? And how can we be so passionate for a path that’s difficult? God is preparing us in the long path for us to win the battles that require us to receive His abundant blessings. Shortcuts can catch us off guard.

Yes, shortcuts, what comes easy won’t last. I felt the sinking feeling in my heart again but the Lord is just too awesome that He knows what to say to enlighten me. I came across a Facebook post reminding me of His promises. It goes like this: You say, “I can’t go on.” God says, “My grace is sufficient.” You say, “I can’t manage.” God says, “I will supply all your needs.”

I then came to the point where I realized that I am God’s princess, a princess who deserves more than a boy who doesn’t even care about me and my feelings. I knew I had to let this go because it is taking away the joy that I deserve. Deep in my heart I find it hard to do, but I know that by His grace, I can. Who knows what’ll happen after, right? I may not understand His will, but soon I will. I believe that He is taking care of my past for me, I just have to keep moving forward.

Have you ever had one of those days where nothing all that monumental happens, but by the end of it you have no idea who you are or what the heck you are doing with your life? Do you ever have one of those days? -Robin (HIMYM)

Lately I’ve been contemplating whether I made the right decision or not. I keep on asking myself, “Is this worth the try? The effort? Or am I just wasting time and forgetting my priorities? Am I going to benefit something out of this?” I honestly can’t answer my own question.

“You get to lose some in order to gain some,” I remind myself always. But what if I’m losing more than what I gain? I feel like I’m missing a lot of opportunities out there just because of one decision. Such a bad decision maker and an impulsive person I am.

So here’s something nice I just read. Something for me and you to remember:

Sometimes our circumstances seem to come about by chance. We think, If I had made this decision instead of that decision, my life would be different. Or, If I’d been here instead of there, this wouldn’t have happened. While we cannot use this as an excuse for making poor decisions, we can have the confidence that nothing happens by chance. Take care of your responsibilities in a way that honors God, and He will work out His plan through you.

If you are struggling with the “what ifs” of life, put them aside. Be assured that God is working out His plan for you, and it won’t be by chance.

Since God is in charge, nothing is by chance.

Not by Chance by Woodrow Kroll

Things are bound to happen this way. Even if I thought that I made the wrong decision, still, He will lead me to victory. He will make a way out. I might belittle myself and think that I can’t make it because of my abilities, but He believes in me a lot lot more than I believe in myself. He sees more than what I see in me, and He knows that what He’s given me is enough to make something big.

God doesn’t require more than what we have. We just have to press on, do things with all our might, and let Him bless it.

And I quote MAE’s Skyline Drive, “Never giving up, always seeking light, we must always try, try with all our might.”


Ice cream would be really nice now.. But it sucks that I had to be allergic to milk.

Reflecting on the things that happened to me on the first two months of the year, I can say that I am really stepping out of my comfort zone. Trials came and tried to knock me down, but here I am, standing firm because of His grace.

I don’t know if this is being shallow or what.. But I never really imagined myself away from sweets (ice cream, RSCs, baked goods) and cheese and the sort. Not to eat foods containing milk is really out of my cz. Albeit the hardship of choosing smartly what to eat (my diet’s a bit costly now, I had to avoid processed food as well and eat real food), I am still thankful that I got to know my allergies sooner. This could be a wake up call for me, it’s about time that I take GOOD care of myself. I’ve been so sickly lately and obviously it’s all because of my unhealthy lifestyle.

I believe things are happening for the fulfillment of His plan, for His glory. I may not understand it now, but I will soon.

1-blogThis is something that I’ve always wanted to do but never had the guts. Haha so this is the first step.

It’s the first day of our third term! Took the chance to go home early and shoot my outfit for today: Kloset blouse, Chick flick floral pants & necklace, Arrow bag, thrifted arm candy.

Hooray for me. 🙂

Here I am trying to put my sentiments into words.. again. I realized there were thousands of blogs I’ve made before but end up getting abandoned. Haha. I just hope this blog survives.

Time flies sooooo fast, it’s already 2013! The past year was wonderful: lots of experiences, realizations, laughter, and tears. Despite the fact that family members were in and out of the hospital, financial issues came, and trials knocked me down, I’m glad that I didn’t give up and kept in mind that all these shall pass too. Yes, those times were hard, but it all happened in accordance to His plan. And just like what they say, “In order to see the rainbow, you must first endure the rain.” That’s what life is about, we hold on to His promise of not causing pain without having something good to be born from it. (Isaiah 66:9) Isn’t it amazing that even if we fall, we’ll surely get back up, just like the sun rising from the night?

I’m so excited for what God has in store for me this 2013. Problems may come but I know I can handle it. I must not worry about what the future holds because I know He is already there. For this year, I told myself to get out of my comfort zone and do what I really wanna do. Now I’ll start my new blog again, one step at a time. So.. hello, I’m Sab. 🙂